Belonging a far-fetched word,
been ages since I came so close
fear grips and tears me apart
no courage to face the path.
Choices I made have run me astray
leaving behind the lanes of memories
that seem to fade away
like a flower that
withers dry and crumbles
when left alone
I have no one to call my own.
Parents, friends and education on my mind
can’t keep up to the pressure mounting inside
I feel disarrayed and lost
with no clarity and sense of direction
questions that thump my mind
I wonder, what is wrong with me?
I feel so lonely.
Can’t cope with their expectations
like dark clouds, looming on the horizon
what is this life?
A gimmick, a game
people running, a part of this rat race
seeking validation and trying to prove a point
to those who hardly care.
I wish they could listen to my heart
my mind plummeting
in the depths of grief and despair
tired of being what they want me to be
why can’t I just be me?
Can’t stop these tears from flowing
Do I even belong here?
A world
where you’re not judged
with no one to please.
Life, a beautiful poem
I want to experience,
serendipity is what I desire
how I want to be loved and understood
loneliness I made you my friend
comfort I feel in your embrace.